I had a dream, a dream to blog about almost all the precious experiences I would go through in my lifetime. The dream was so vivid I saw it going from the year 2014 all through to the day I am no longer a part of this world. I lied to myself, it’s not possible for me and I accept it with open arms. I’ve been blogging for nearly 6 years now and I’m closing this chapter of my life soon. Let me share a few secrets with you…
1. Time Won’t Be Enough
I’ve been waking up at 3am to create content. It started because of the load shedding situation in Zimbabwe. I wouldn’t have electricity for the greater part of the day. I decided if I slept early I would wake up in the wee hours of the morning instead to do some cleaning, cooking and you guessed it, blogging. That’s the only time I had access to WiFi so the plan was to make the most of it. I would create my content in advance, schedule it and get a chance to read through other posts bloggers I follow would have penned down. However, it turns out time is something I no longer have enough of. I’m big on telling people that “you make time for what matters to you” and it’s true. Although blogging matters to me, I now have other platforms I cater to that need my full attention. The time for blogging simply isn’t there anymore.
2. You Will Run Out Of Ideas
You can write alright, but exactly how many ideas do you go through till you get to the point where you realise that there isn’t anything to write about anymore? I’ve done it all. I’ve written about travel, relationships, blogging tips, motherhood, sex, events in town, restaurant reviews, you name it and I have a blog hiding somewhere in my posts for it. I’ve even written articles I’ve been paid for. One of the coolest things about blogging which is clearly diverting us from the topic at hand! Yes, ideas will soon run out and you might end up with a blog with no content for months to come and start questioning why you even started blogging.
3. Which Brings Us To The Why
The main reason I started blogging was to have an outlet for my broken heart. I was bitter and full of so much range that I couldn’t contain and the best way to let it out was through writing. It worked for a few years until all the negative feelings no longer lived inside me. I’m in a better space now and I believe my time for oversharing parts of my personal life is over.
When the why fades away, it doesn’t make sense to keep going. I’m not an angry black woman anymore, why keep focusing on the past that can’t be altered when I have a bright future to indulge in? My why doesn’t live here anymore.
4. A Friend Told Me
That it’s okay to let go. She has walked with me through this journey and when I told her that I was losing my zeal for blogging she reminded me that change happens. I can focus my energy on something else that inspires me to create. The end of something can birth new opportunities.
5. Mental Wellness
In the past I’ve easily shared intimate parts of my life freely. However, as I’ve grown older I realise that maybe it’s not such a great idea to do so. The past few months have been difficult for me on the mental wellness front. I’ve had bouts of anxiety and depression. These are things I would have put in a blog post but I feel that maybe it needs to be in a different setup altogether until such a time I know how to manage my dark days. Social media might not be the space right now.
This is my last blog post on my Lifestyle Blog. The journey was enthralling… Letting go of something that used to be the centre of my attention feels like I’ve lost a part of me but it’s for the best. I have a new project I’ll be working on that I’m excited about. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do but knowing that I won’t be focusing all my efforts on running two blogs reassures me that I will finally have time to give it my full attention.
Curious question; have you at any point during your journey you’ve decided you’re done with blogging?
I’ll still be available on my Fitness Blog which you can subscribe to over here. I’m also on social media platforms with the same handles throughout: @fitnessbaezim
Thank you for the amazing support, for reading through my posts, sharing with your friends and family, commenting and leaving “likes”. Without you my blog would have never grown into a brand. I’ll be forever grateful.
“If you’re brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello.”