30 Days Without Alcohol

27 August 2018 marked the day I declared my sobriety challenge.  After an amazing night out the previous Saturday I woke up feeling tired, groggy and questioning my not so productive habit of nearly a decade.  I love alcohol, mainly because of the happy and care free feeling I get from it while I’m drinking it but the next day isn’t rosy at all.  Mind you, I’m a fitness enthusiast so my drinking is really counter productive for the most part.

I have a couple of reasons why I’ve decided to embark on this journey which include:

  • I’ve gained weight.  You should have seen how much I was drinking throughout winter.  Once upon a few months ago I had a 6 pack. Now I have a little pouch and I’m not amused.
  • I’m tired of feeling tired.  Having to pop pills before I go to sleep so that I can wake up feeling half alive isn’t fun anymore
  • I need my energy back, I used to run a lot faster now my pace is slower.  I have to choose a side, either I’m fit 100% or I’m not fit at all, I choose the former.
  • My face looks puffy and tired and I know alcohol is somehow contributing to that. I want to be forever young.
  • I want to save money.  Do you have any idea how much it costs to maintain this habit?  I can’t even type it out, just know it’s A LOT.
  • I also read an article saying that the top beverage company in the country is currently facing a beer crisis so I may as well adjust accordingly before things get bad.

Please note that I’ve been on this booze free journey before and didn’t even document it because the plan was to stop for a short while.  This time around I not only want to stop drinking alcohol for 30 days, I want to stop completely and I’m going to need all the will power under the sun to make this materialise.  I won’t say I’m feeling enthusiastic about this challenge. What shall replace my weakness?

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Day 1

I got home to a bottle of opened wine from the Saturday event.  I was tempted to drink it up but told myself that I’ll pack it away instead and if anyone chooses to buy me alcohol I’ll gladly accept it and keep it.  Why not start a mini bar?  For some odd reason I was feeling very hungry throughout the day even after eating something which is ordinarily filling.  Perhaps I still have alcohol in my system from the weekend?  Either way, I feel heavy and it’s not okay.

Day 5

I’m okay so far.  I can’t say I have any withdrawal symptoms I can point out.  Methinks exercising twice a day has kept me from thinking about alcohol.  One thing is certain, I’m sleeping peacefully.  I only wake up once for a pee break and that in my world is a great achievement!  I also now have a YouTube Channel and it’s really keeping me busy; you can check it out over here. I’ve been learning a lot about how  YouTube works so I guess what my friend said about replacing a habit with another habit actually works .  Thank the stars I’ve adopted a positive habit.  The weekend is just a day away and I normally go all in on alcohol especially when I visit my hometown.  Pray for me, it’s not going to be easy to stay sober but it has to be done, it is after all, a challenge…

Day 10

The other day I dreamt that I had a glass of wine at a party.  I was completely flat with myself for giving in so early only to realise that it was just a dream.  Man I miss me some wine.  That sparkling chilled glass after work is the answer to relaxation.  Sadly for me I can’t enjoy anymore of that.  I’ve resolved to drinking my fanta with lots of ice in a wine glass to make myself feel better.  Don’t even ask me about the cravings galore I’m currently experiencing.  Chocolate, biscuits, crisps, fizzy drinks, those are my current weaknesses and I hate myself for indulging in them.

Day 15

I’m proud of myself for not drinking any alcohol for the past 15 days, I’ve kept my word and I’ve been a good girl.  I even went to church on Sunday.  Mind you I last went a very long time ago and it felt refreshing to start my Sunday morning sober and thinking clearly.  The only downside to this challenge is that I’m now having trouble sleeping.  Just yesterday I shared my thoughts on my Twitter timeline;

 

I was wide awake the entire night and there was nothing I could do about it.  I was used to drowning my sorrows in a glass of wine or vodka but that wasn’t an option.  I was also out of pain medication, I drink the ones that come with the instruction “may cause drowsiness” to help me escape to dreamland but it just wasn’t my lucky day.  It turns out insomnia is one of the withdrawal symptoms for stopping alcohol.  I’m honestly tempted to stop this journey, the side effects are not easy to handle.

Day 20

I took a selfie the other and I couldn’t believe my eyes.  My skin is glowing, my face is fuller, my cheeks are back to being nice and round, I don’t have dark circles under my eyes anymore and I look pretty hydrated if I do say so myself.  Alcohol was leaving my face with a puffy effect and it didn’t look good at all.  My sister tried to tempt me the other day and bought a 6 pack of Hunters Gold(thankfully I don’t like it) and wanted to see if I would give in and drink it. I didn’t and the next morning she took me shopping just to show how proud of me she was.  Coolest sister ever right?

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MaKupsy living the sober life 🙂

Day 30

I made it through.  Even I didn’t believe I could go through with this but here I am.  A quick look at my progress(or none) report:

1. I gained weight even though I cut out alcohol for a month.

27 August 2018 :  77.2kgs

26 September 2018: 78.6kgs 

A whole 1.4kgs added to my weight and here I was thinking it would actually aid with weight loss.  The freaking irony!

2. I used to get super sloshed every weekend but I managed to stay sober throughout even when my friends looked like they were having double the fun under the influence of alcohol.

3. One of the reasons I got through this challenge was because I had an accountability partner in the form of an amazing boyfriend.

Some of the lessons I learnt from this challenge are definitely that I should stick to drinking alcohol because when I drink I feel bad then work out extra hard the next day.  I might stick to drinking on some weekends only from hereon because alcohol makes me happy and why in the world would I want to deprive myself of this pleasure?  Lastly, this challenge made me do more productive things with my time; church, reading, travel and actually spending quality time with my significant other instead of us always nursing a hangover.

Have you been on a sobriety challenge before?  If yes, how long were you off alcohol for and what are some of the lessons you learnt from staying sober?

P.S My friend Umba suggested we do a No Sex October Challenge next; she has gone and lost her mind!

©MaKupsy 2018

 

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It’s Not You, It’s Me…

“Alcohol is not in my vodkabulary.  However, I looked it up on whiskeypedia and learned if you drink too much of it, it’s likely tequilya.”

I had so much alcohol last year.  If I were to collect all the bottles of wine, ciders and vodka that I went through I would be embarrassed for myself.  You see, I have a love looove relationship with alcohol, something about it just makes me feel better.  After a few glasses my spirit is lifted and I can take on the world again.  Unfortunately that relationship has come to an end.  I spent the entire Easter break sober and it was NOT by choice.

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I’ve stopped drinking for medical reasons.  Don’t think I didn’t try to have a glass or two over the weekend.  I did; but two sips into a glass of wine I knew this was a bad idea and I threw it out, I couldn’t stomach it.  Last night with a splitting headache I attempted a bit of vodka which never happened because soon after mixing the drink I was sure going to throw up.  My heart is breaking, what we had was unique, alcohol has never let me down, why is it doing this to me?  I thought we were in love, I thought we had great chemistry, I thought we were in this together forever but here I am, alone with no one to turn to.  What the heck am I going to do with myself on weekends?  What do sober people do with their time.  Surely there must be more to life than drinking fruit juice?

Let me take you a walk down memory lane…

Vodka+Berry Blaze/ Berry Nice/ Red Grape Juice + Ice

If I wanted to have the best time of my life this was my drink of choice.  The only problem with vodka is that it will take you from 0 straight to 100.  There’s no in-between.  However, I only have this drink from the comfort of my home or when I’m around friends I completely trust, black outs are real.  The hangover was from out of this world if I had Russian Bear but Skyy and Absolut never gave me such problems.

Wine 

White wine made me feel relaxed, I could have a few glasses(or the bottle) while reading a good book or watching a feel good movie.

Rose isn’t all that, I only had it when I couldn’t find anything else.

Red wine made me so freaking horny!  Oh, and the confessions, I would start telling my friend about all the naughty things I used to get up to.  He used to look forward to those messages, it’s a pity it’s all over.  Red wine had a bitter taste and gave me a headache the next day so I tried to have it moderation.

Ciders

Give me Hunters Dry or Hunters Edge and you would have made my day.  The perfect drink to have when chilling out or going for a road trip.  It had zero effect, just felt like I was having a nice cold drink.  No hangover too.

You see.  This time around I know for a fact that I won’t be drinking again and it’s hurting me so badly I don’t even know how I’m going to manage.  Ideas of how to still enjoy this life thing sober are sincerely welcome, help me.

Dear alcohol, it’s really not you, it’s me…

MaKupsy©

 

Is This Your Enemy Of Progress?

I believe we all have that one thing that we know is an enemy of progress.  It can be laziness, lack of faith, that one ex who calls and suddenly has you thinking of taking them back, the love for money and even sex! Being an adult comes without a manual but through experience you get to know yourself better and realise when certain temptations hit all that progress you had made is about to come crumbling down…

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My love for natural sweet white wine will be the death of me!  I just love it so much it may as well be my best friend.  Last year my poison was Vodka but it came with stomach cramps the next day.  I had an affair with red wine that didn’t last for long because I would have a splitting headache the next day.  I finally decided to try out white wine and I absolutely loved it!  I remember Chef Takura(single and very sexy but he has a beard so he isn’t a potential candidate) recommending it to me and it listening to him was the best decision I ever made.  The one thing I love about white wine is I usually have it from the comfort of my warm bed and just after two glasses I am off to la la land.  I prefer having it on the occasional weekend that way I don’t feel so guilty for indulging in something I know is an enemy of progress in the fitness department.  I have a bottle all weekend though, that’s much better than having 3 bottles during the course of a weekend, yes, no?  (trying to defend the error of my ways here)

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I have had days were my whole day has been mapped by the things I have read, seen or watched on social media.  There was a week when the #MenAreTrash hash tag was trending on almost all social media platforms.  It was the most heartbreaking week of my life.  The stories I read about what women go through left me feeling blue.  I remember sharing my own story on my timeline and after that all the negative thoughts and feelings from the past came back to haunt me.

The very same platforms that bear sad news also come with beautiful things such as travel, love, relationships all wrapped in one.  Now this stuff will make you wish you can order a partner just like the one you saw on Instagram!  Don’t do it to yourself, take it from me.  People will always show you the bright side of their lives and hardly ever the problems they are going through.  Next thing you will contemplate breaking up with your partner because they have not taken you for a surprise getaway weekend to Italy, you will die from stress o!  To make matters worse you can actually go an entire morning surfing through the internet giving yourself self inflicted stress.  This is why you should stick to reading blogs like mine instead, nothing but good times only here.  However, I have found a way to deal with this and that is by simply taking time off social media.  Spend your time on other fulfilling activities that will not leave you green with envy or constantly comparing your life with the next person. Remember that comparison will steal your joy.  Do not let this be your enemy of progress!

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Negative energy is real.  Ever noticed how some people just love to complain about any and everything and once you are done talking to them you wonder why you are feeling miserable.  I am one person who values their peace of mind.  There are so many things going wrong in our country that could easily send you straight to your death while you are asleep the last thing you need is spending time with a “Negative Nancy”.  I understand that we all have problems and sometimes all you want to do is vent and get someone else to listen to you.  That’s perfectly fine but it is NOT okay to vent for an entire day.  Do you have any idea how that drains the next person?  Please do not do it to your loved ones.  If you decide to vent by all means do so but with all the venting make sure you come up with a solution to the problem together and act on it.  No one wants to spend time with negative people, they steal your joy.  Next time someone tries to ruin your day remember that it is your right to protect your peace and you can politely tell them to take their negative energy elsewhere.

I would love to hear from you.  What are some of your enemies of progress and how do deal with them?

©MaKupsy 2017